I want to be ready ...not tired.

Waiting for something can wear you down - emotionally, physically and spiritually. Proverbs 13:12 says "Hope deferred, makes the heart sick" and I think that it very true. You can be very focused on a dream, you can be devoted in prayer to seeing a desired outcome, and you can be so ready to receive God's blessings but then...you can get tired.

I got a call, yesterday, that I got a position at the NRH Coffee bar. I had interviewed about a month ago for a job and they hired someone else. It was for a time slot that would have been difficult for me so it was probably a good thing. They now have another position, with a much better schedule, and I am so blessed with the opportunity.

I think that sometimes, when something good happens, you have a hard time finding the energy to enjoy it. Looking back at some of the older blog posts, I spoke of the dreams that I wanted to acheive. Many of those dreams have not been obtained. I still have weight that has not been lost, I still have bills that I am not able to pay, and I have yet to go on a date but I do have the job that I was wanting. I am also getting my Zumba certification this weekend and that was a dream that I wanted to acheive. So, I am working towards living my dream.

I want to make sure that I see the blessings in my life and that I don't concentrate on the things that have not come to pass. God is working on me. It is so clear to me that God is doing wonderful things to my heart. I have been praying for discernment, understanding, and wisdom and I have been so proud of how much better I am able to understand what God wants of me and what is important. I will keep my eyes on Him.

Get wisdom, get understanding, do not forget my words or swerve from them. Don't forsake wisdom; and she will protect you - love her and she will take watch over you. Wisdom is supreme; therefore get wisdom. Though it cost all you have - get understanding. Esteem her and she will honor you. She will seet up a garland of grace on your head and present you with a crown of splendor. Proverbs 4:5 - 9