My abilities

My dreams are in line with my abilities. I have the degree, the experience in fitness, and the enthusiasm needed to be an awesome fitness instructor. I want to help people in a fitness capacity. I am still asking God, daily, to fine tune my dream and reveal it to me. What I need to do first is develop a stronger body. My back has been bothering me and causing less flexibility. I need to stretch and get the kinks out.
I have already talked to many friends about my dream and they are very supportive and believe that my dreams are justified. Lord, I love you and want to stop wanting to be known and justified by friends. Lord, you can reveal my dreams and direct me in a path that will help me pursue them. You are interested in my dreams and my every thought and desire. I need to talk to you more. I need to stop feeling lonely because you are always there for me to share my life with. You created me, Lord, and you know that I want a wonderful man to share my life, that I want to be a good mom, that I want time with my children, and that I need enough money to stay afloat.
I am believing that God will bring the desires of my heart because I am delighting in Him. I also realize that I am the reason that I have not achieved my dreams so far. I have never felt worthy. I question everything, change my mind constantly, and I don't believe in myself. I know that the only way that I can start making changes, in that direction, is to continue seeking Godly counsel, stay in the word, and surround myself with Christian friends.
I am reading a book that says that sometimes the events and hurts that cause us to give up can be very painful. I think that I have been through things that have made me want to give up. The pain of not accomplishing our dreams is hard but I have to change my mindset and realize that I am a conqueror. I have made a lot of changes, already. I have let go of relationships that were with people that held me back and detoured me from my path. I know that it is detrimental to allow them back in my life because I need to run to God when I am overwhelmed, not to the bar or refrigerator. I need to rely on God's opinion of me, not the opinions that I receive from others..although they are sometimes nice to hear.