Maybe it is time to give myself a little break and change things up

I was really upset when I got on the scale and found that I have not lost any weight in the last 17 days. Seventeen days of refraining from pasta, bread, sweets. Okay, I have cheated a little since I have had sweet tea, a few bites of spaghetti, and crackers BUT I refrained from chocolate - that should be good for at least 5 pounds. I will not give up! I did get upset, though, and messed up the last couple of days. It is sad how depressed that we can get over weight loss.

I have been reading Captivating, lately, and it lifts my spirit! I think that the main reason that I love the book is that it validates my thoughts. I believe that most women go through a period when they feel inadequate. I hate that I feel that the attention of a man is going to validate my beauty. It seems that a lot of women also feel that way. I hate the jealous feelings that I am having when I find out that another friend of mine is in a relationship. I am happy for them, honestly, but I just have the desire that it will happen for me, too. I think about how beautiful it would be to spend a wonderful Spring day with my boyfriend and my birthday, as well.

I stayed busy the entire weekend. I did things with friends, with my kiddos, and with God. What a wonderful weekend it was. I realize that I am blessed in so many ways. I have friends that are such a special part of my life, my kids are so thankful for the small things that I can do for them, and God has a way of making me feel beautiful when I set my eyes upon Him. I love that my boys can tell how much God means to me and they are feeling His love, too. I served at church today and I came home with some of the food that was left over. Trent saw the grapes as I got them out of the bag and said "God is so good". Okay, that is what it is all about. He hears me Praise God for what we receive and he has learned to do the same. The best gift that I can give, as a mother, is being able to see the blessings instead of constantly looking at the things that I don't have.

Okay, so maybe I am not a size 8, I am not working yet, and I am not happily married but I need to realize that I have my bills paid, food on my table, and healthy children. I may not have achieved 30 days to my dreams but I have achieved a lot - when you look at my emotional health and God knows the job that is going to work out the best for me and my children. God knows best in every aspect of my life! So, I will walk by faith! I also will change up the diet and exercise plan so that I can achieve some results. :)