Assembling a team

I have not been keeping my goals. First of all, I did not get a job yet. Well, actually, I truly believe with everything that has been going on, that God has that all under control. BUT, I am really good at making excuses, usually they don't involve God. For example, I have not started my weight loss goal. In fact, I have not bought batteries for the Wii so that I can start weighing myself regularly and keeping track of my workouts. I have not been real consistent with my workouts either. Okay, here comes another excuse. I have been busy helping my cousin get her house ready to sell, which has been hard, calorie expending work, I have not been feeling really well, and today I had my two year grandson, all day, and he did not take a nap. They are good excuses for my lack of activity for the last three days...besides that, I have been very consistent.
I need to assemble of team of people that can support, encourage, give me honest feedback, give wisdom and experience, accountability, and guidance. I have a few people in mind but I have not asked. I wonder if the reason, subconsciously, that I have not asked them to be accountability/support partners is because I am not ready to be fully accountable. I don't mind if people ask me, straight out, if I have been reading my bible because I am ready to be accountable for my spiritual health but it is hard to be accountable for those things that are more difficult for us to maintain. Wow... it is nice to realize that my spiritual health is the area that I am more consistent with.
Okay, now that I acknowledge that, I would love to think that God would reward our good behavior with a ten pound weight loss, for starters. Haha. Actually, I know that I would have that reward if I would reach for my bible instead of a bag of chips. It is really much harder than that...for me. I would like to think that when I am seeking food for comfort, it would be better to seek God. Honestly, the way I have felt about it lately is that my God time is cherished time when I am seeking him when I feel wonderful and I am yearning for Him and not when I am seeking Him because I am feeling blue. I need to change my mindset and seek Him at the time that I want to be wooed and when I need Him so that I won't eat another handful of chips.
I am continuing to seek wisdom and praying for my sister. I spent time with my younger sister on Saturday. It was the first time in almost two years and it was nice. I am learning how to share my heart, my desires, and my relationship with Jesus in small doses or only with those who God releases me to share with, so I only spoke for a brief period (about 10 minutes) about church and my relationship with God. I was amazed that I could speak so little about God with her since it is the basis of every other relationship that I have, right now. My niece also sat and talked with us and we all had a nice visit. I never felt like I needed to defend myself or my actions and for the first time, probably ever, I did not talk about the latest man in my life. Well, I guess I did...(about 10 minutes) Praise God!