Being in control

Attending bible studies and woman's groups are so encouraging to me. Women that are empowering each other and women that help each other stay accountable in those things that they are battling is amazing. I have surrounded myself with incredible women and I feel blessed. I have really good friends that love me and want to see me succeed. I have talked to a couple of friends, since my last post, about keeping me accountable but I know that they are busy. It is encouraging to be contacted by friends to find out how I am doing in my weight loss and exercise goals, but more importantly, it is important that I am accountable to myself.
I talked to God for quite a long time, last night, about how I have been obedient in many aspects of my life, as of late, but how I transferred a lot of my dependencies to an obsession with food. I had bulimia when I was a teenager and I have always had a problem with food but I have seen more of a problem emerge in the last few months. Well, maybe it is not more of a problem but...maybe God is drawing my attention to it since my lack of will power is in direct correlation to my lack of obedience.
I have laid my obsession to food at the foot of the cross and I will NOT pick it up again. Okay, so I walked into QT last night and did not go to the candy bar isle. I did not even take a small peppermint patty. THIS IS BIG! I am going to abstain from white flour products and sweets. I did a good work-out today and I did not overeat. I feel incredible. It is only day two but I am in control of my body. I will be in a much better position to live out my dreams when I have conquered the things that have become obstacles in my path.
I have to pat myself on the back because I have also made the decision to stop having expectations that the "man of my dreams" is going to show up in my dreams, at my front door, or anywhere else. If it happens, I will not push him away but I am going to TRY...try being the opportive word... to stop fantasizing and wishing. God is going to bring the man that I need when I need him. I have to continue to remember that the man that God will bless me with is so much more than the man that I have planned. God is going to surpass my expectations. BRING IT, LORD!